Column 6 – Part 1

Excuses, Excuses.

Either you do it, or you don’t, there aren’t any excuses. I have known so many people in my short life that talk about doing something, but something always gets in the way.

I never want to be that person. If I want to do something, I push things aside, and I make it a priority. It is a challenge, and I am a vehement believer that challenge is good for you. My Grandpa told me many times as I screwed around and pissed away my school days, “You just need to be challenged”. “Yeah, right. I doubt it,” I thought. But he was right.

I don’t complain when I don’t do something I said I would. I don’t say, “Well, I had to organize my recyclables” or “I had to go to the store and get some earplugs.” What I do say is, “I didn’t make time for that” or “It just wasn’t important enough to me, to do right now.” I don’t lie but instead stay true to myself.

That is why this disheartens me to say, that I am not sticking to the two week schedule for this column. I was up until 1:30 one night this week and thought, “Gosh, and I still don’t feel like I am making any headway.” In awe, I surf these sites of these artists who are breaking out, and I feel left in the dust. I have just made a new commitment to do coloring on my artwork 15 minutes every night. It is a small goal, but I have been so unmotivated in the past to do it, that if I don’t start somewhere, I won’t at all.

Originally I thought, if I write this column every two weeks, it will be great for me to practice my writing for when I self publish. But a picture is worth a thousand words, as the saying goes. Even though I do believe that I am above average in my creative writing, I do not believe that doing it at a two week click will be as beneficial to my artist career as working on more finished images will be.

So basically, I am apologizing. For the few of you who have read these right along, I hope you will still read even though I will only be doing this once a month. I feel guilty, but that will pass. Time is always a struggle with me, and I will soon forget and put that time elsewhere.

“I didn’t make time for it right now,” is kind of what it comes down to.

I don’t have any good excuses, because there is no such thing. I have made a decision, and I hope that you who read won’t look upon me harshly for it. I know I don’t. I am proud of my commitment to meeting deadlines, and I intend to keep doing that, only in different areas on this website.

So, don’t go away, I will still have all sorts of fun stuff coming up.

Warning: Sara Littell. This column details my first trip to the EGR Firehouse. Don’t get me wrong, it was a great trip. I am writing a whole column about it. I know Sarah’s first reaction when she saw your gift certificate was, “Gosh, that was awfully generous of her for only one person.” We had a great evening, this is just an exaggerated take on our excursion.

Always read the full description.

I was kind of hoping that the column I posted tonight would have said this,

“I am sorry, there is no column today, I had a sudden trip to England. I will write all about it when I get back.”

I had thought it out in my head, and thought of the weight it would convey, and I was bubbling with delight.

The “Buzz” at work

At 1:00 today things started to buzz around work. There was a customer, I am not sure if it was a returning one or not, that needed some parts overnight because their production downtime was costing them large amounts of money daily. Their drives were down and we had the parts that they needed, it seemed simple enough, get it to them the next day to minimize their downtime. This is most of our business. The only catch, this customer is located in England.

I am not privy to any information at the office. I do my job, and I try not to be too nosy, but sometimes, my curiosity gets the best of me. For something like this, I will not lie and say I was completely passive. There was talk of how to gets these goods to this customer in the UK, and no air cargo was going to be able to do it by noon tomorrow. The best they could do was midday on Monday.

I was in my newly walled off cubicle when this discussion was happening between the boss and another employee.

I said, “My wife and I both have current passports.”

My boss is over 6’4” and he just kind of peered over my wall, hung his hands over and looked in, “Are you serious?”

I nodded.

Now, my boss is the most level headed man I know, and this question was not misleading at all. There was no indication of interest at the statement I had just made, and as I nodded, I just kept staring at my compute screen, without a blink. When he left, I didn’t even turn in hopes of a reaction. I just kept plodding along through my work.

As the day went on, it was apparent that no one would be able to fly the cargo overseas for us, instead, someone who have to take it over. My boss’ wife was in the running to take it, but she turned it down. I am not really sure that anyone else even had a passport in the office. But I do and so does my wife. Granted, it was something like an 8 hour flight each way, and I had made some promises to have an almost final version of my client’s website done by Monday.

But this was not something I would pass up. It would still assert to myself, and the surrounding world, that I can still be spontaneous in a life that has boiled down to an overwhelming amount of routine.

Continue to Part 2…..

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